There are moments when illness doesn't just affect the body — it quietly changes the way we relate to ourselves.

In this episode, Connie shares the moment she realized she wasn't failing at healing — she was living against herself. Not because she lacked discipline, intelligence, or effort, but because she was trying to survive inside systems that couldn't see her whole.

This is not a story about blame or fixing. It's a story about misalignment, self-abandonment, and the subtle ways capable people learn to distrust their own signals when answers don't come.

2:00 – Living Between Health and Illness

2:25 – The Day I Realized I Was Living Against Myself

3:32 – High-Functioning While Falling Apart

4:58 – When Medicine Has No Answers, Self-Blame Begins

5:43 – Editing Your Intuition & Self-Abandonment

6:55 – Misalignment vs Resilience (The Hidden Cost)

8:42 – Effort Is Not Safety

10:29 – The Real Damage Isn't the Illness

15:54 – You Don't Need to Try Harder — You Need a Map

If you've ever:

• done everything "right" and still felt off

• blamed yourself when things didn't resolve

• stayed functional while quietly disconnecting from your body

• felt strong on the outside and misaligned on the inside

This episode will likely feel uncomfortably familiar — and deeply relieving. This podcast is part of EASE OS™, a system for human coherence. Not optimization. Not bypassing. But learning how to live as a whole human again.